-As most of you do not know, for the past few months, I have been going through ever increasing hardships in virtually all areas of my life. I have tried multiple times, in multiple ways, to reverse things but while there are some moments of reprieve, it has mostly been like putting small band-aids over multiple large bullet holes that keep on hemorrhaging. I take a step forward, I get pushed three steps back – especially in the last month. There are too many “plates” in the air (that are now on fire) and I am more and more losing control of my life. In addition, the auto-immune disease that I have, Sarcoidosis, brings the gift of lethargy and brain fog every day so things become even more harder / frustrating to deal with…..
-Most important is my cat Scruffy ( who currently has been going through a medical issue, but I can’t afford to take him to a vet). He doesn’t deserve to be put all this. With all the above, I have to start taking some drastic decisions before I reach the point of no return . And it’s closer than you would think – no joke. I did a deep dive evaluation over this past weekend. I have to make some hard decisions – and fast.
-With that, one of these decisions happened today. Earlier I met with the members of Deep Cutts and told them I was quitting the band. It went as well as you would expect…. It sucked, but this had to happen – I need to stop digging into this damn grave I’m in or I will be buried in it. Yes, it’s that bad – and there’s a lot more that has to be changed before my life starts to even stabilize again. I don’t like this, I don’t want to do this- but as of today I still might be in time to be able to reverse things if I make these changes. If I just continue on the course I’ve been traveling for months, I believe it would soon hit the point of no return and, to the end – no exaggeration. I can’t allow that to happen – if only for Scruffy ‘s sake.
-In addition, another change will be less posting on social media for the time being. It’s why this one is a longer post than what you’ll see on the Deep Cutts page (it should hopefully answer some of questions I’m already getting from a few people as well plus maybe address any upcoming gossip / misinformation from certain sources). The guys in Deep Cutts are great, hard working musicians and I’m honored to have been part of that. I hope you all continue to follow and support them.
-I don’t normally post stuff like this ( blasting social media with my personal problems ) – partly because everyone goes through hard times. People are too focused on their problems, as they should be, to continuously focus on yours. Don’t get me wrong – I have appreciated all well-wishes (and will continue to do so) but I know that, in the end, I have to do the work myself. No one is coming to save me. I have to save myself – and it’s about damn time. Wish me good luck and thank you for attending my Ted Talk
